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Porn, Pizza And Beer
Seth was over Summer. Completely and totally over her.
She was right when she said that it was entirely impossible for them to have a long distance relationship. Plus, she thought he was gay. Which, okay, sure, she could think that if she wanted to, but he totally wasn’t.
And he didn’t talk about Ryan *that* much. He was so tired of people telling him that he did.
He was lying on his stupid dorm bed, staring at his stupid dorm ceiling and…okay, if he wanted to be honest with himself, he was pouting.
Seth sighed and tried to think logically.
Summer broke up with him two days ago. Via email, like he didn’t deserve better. He was still in depressed mode, even though he thought she was probably right with most of her complaints. She’d listed them (in no particular order, she was sure to specify at the top). He could almost see her ticking them off on her fingers as she walked around.
He didn’t spend enough time with her. Okay. That made complete sense, since she was in Seattle at the University of Washington and he was at Berkley, three states away.
He forgot her birthday. He didn’t even have an excuse for that one.
He talked about Ryan all the time. And she was tired of hearing about ‘Coop’s castoffs.’ And if he liked Ryan so freaking much, why didn’t he date *him*, because she wasn’t and he needed to just shut up about Ryan.
That last one was mean. He could understand the other two, even agree with them. But he wasn’t obsessed with Ryan. It wasn’t like she said.
Seth hadn’t even responded to the email. He hadn’t told Ryan or anyone… all he’d done since he’d read the email was mope. He’d gone to class, eaten his three meals a day in the dining hall…but mostly, he’d just spent his time staring at the ceiling hoping for answers.
Seth didn’t know why he did that. It never gave him the meaning of life or provided the answers to quizzes he didn’t study for.
After glancing at the clock for the thousandth time, he sat up and took a deep breath before getting off the bed. It was time for dinner. At least he still had food to comfort him.
~*~
Seth sat alone amid the bustling tables. He wouldn’t have been good company even if he had someone to sit with. College wasn’t that much different than high school, no matter how many times his parents had tried to convince him differently. He still hadn’t made a lot of friends – it was pretty much just Ryan. The classes were the same – more lecturing, more reading and a lot more essays, but not any more interesting. Three and a half more years of this, just so he could go to grad school. He couldn’t wait.
It was probably the break-up depression talking so he decided that maybe he shouldn’t drop out of school and become a career assistant manager at the local Urban Outfitters – no matter how cool their t-shirts were. He could make that decision another day.
A tray dropped down next to his and he looked up. Ryan smiled at him and Seth nodded. He didn’t feel like smiling.
“Dude. What the hell is the matter with you? You’ve done nothing but eat and sleep for two days. Have you been to class?”
Seth grunted and pushed his mashed potatoes around the plate.
“Was that a ‘yes’? Or a ‘no’?”
“Whatever.” Seth had been to class, but it wasn’t like he’d paid attention. Instead, he’d scribbled love poems that he’d never show to anyone. Ryan didn’t have to know that part.
Ryan looked at him for a second before shaking his head. “What happened?”
Seth shrugged. “Summer broke up with me.”
“Over the phone?” Ryan asked incredulously. “That’s rough.”
“No. She opted to tear my heart out via our brand new shiny DSL modem. Faster that way.”
“That’s even worse.”
Nodding morosely, Seth pushed his tray to the other side of the table and planted his chin in his hands. “I fucked up and forgot her birthday.” It was the safest and truest of her accusations. At least if you didn’t count the whole ‘being gay’ and ‘in love with Ryan’ parts. And he didn’t. Not even one little bit.
“Did she use the long-distance excuse, too?”
Seth nodded.
“It’s tough, man.” Ryan clapped him on the back. “But, we’re in college. There are plenty of fine honeys for you to get your freak on with.”
Grinning for the first time in days, Seth looked up. “Did you just say ‘fine honeys’ and ‘get your freak on’?”
Ryan nodded, burger half way to his mouth. Seth started laughing. “At least I’m not the lamest person in the universe,” he managed to get out between gasps.
Swallowing once before he tried talking again, Ryan rolled his eyes. “I’m glad you can laugh through your pain. Want to get drunk and go to a strip club?”
“Nah, they’d never let me in. And my fake ID is still in the mail.”
“How about just getting drunk and watching porn?”
Seth considered for a minute. Hah! He’d prove he wasn’t gay! “You’re on. My last class is over at six. Pizzas, porn and beer?”
Ryan nodded and Seth smiled again.
~*~
Seth was looking forward to his night with Ryan. It wasn’t the first night they’d spent watching porn and getting drunk. When Marissa had broken up with Ryan – all six times when they were in high school – they’d held their pity party in the pool house. Of course, then, the biggest problem had been getting the alcohol, and there was no shortage of that around Newport.
Now, Seth’s biggest problem was going to be keeping his erection down.
Fine. Maybe he’d admit it to himself. Ryan was kind of hot. There. He’d thought it. He looked around, but it wasn’t like any of the other students could read his thoughts. Unless they were secretly mutants like the X-Men.
He was sitting on a bench outside of his last class, waiting for it to be okay for him to go in. The class before his ran long sometimes, so he’d taken to showing up early and putting the final touches on his homework while waiting.
The professor showed up, so Seth followed him in. It was an English Lit class, and there was a lot of reading and writing of papers, but Seth enjoyed all that, and the teacher seemed to like him. He’d gotten an A- and a B+ on the first two papers of the semester.
By the time his class had started, Seth wasn’t paying any attention at all. All of his thoughts were on Ryan and what Summer had said. Was he really gay? Did he really want the same things with him that he’d had with Summer?
Part of him was sure she was just projecting. Or just pulling a random excuse out of her ass that Seth was taking way too personally. But it was personal, and if she was right, then maybe he was gay. Or at least bisexual. Because he was definitely into women, too. He and Summer had been having sex regularly since they’d started going out. He’d even talked her into wearing the Wonder Woman costume a few times.
Smiling, Seth decided he couldn’t be gay. But then, somehow the picture in his head of Summer with the lasso and crown and morphed into Ryan in the same outfit. The scowl on his face was pretty damn funny and Seth covered his mouth and tried not to laugh out loud.
Okay, so Ryan was hot. He could admit that to himself. But it wasn’t like he wanted to have sex with him. Trying to picture that was much easier than he thought it would be. Much easier than it should be for someone as straight as Seth. He could see skin and of course Ryan’s hair would be messy… and he’d be biting his lower lip…
The almost instant erection was enough of an answer for Seth. He shifted in his seat and subtly tried to move his notebook to his lap. To cover the evidence. Ryan made him hard. That was something he was going to have to deal with. But so not in class. This self-honesty crap was not a good idea in the middle of a crowded classroom.
At least he could blame the inevitable erection tonight on the hot chicks in the porn.
That is, if he got out of class without embarrassing himself to death first.
~*~
Seth’s job was to get the pizza. Ryan had the porn connections and Seth didn’t question it. He also had the alcohol connection, since technically neither of them were old enough to purchase it legally. Seth was too much of a chicken-shit to just walk in and buy the beer. He was always nervous and the sweating gave him away as being too young. Ryan would just walk in casually, like he had bought cases of beer billions of times. He always seemed to win over the female clerks with his so-called Atwood Charm.
Seth’s standard response to Ryan’s, ‘I just smiled at the lady behind the counter,’ speech was to tell him he was full of shit.
Oh man, Ryan charmed the ladies. Seth’s own self-realization during his class of his feelings for Ryan didn’t matter. What with Ryan being so very straight and all. Seth was doomed.
Seth was lying on his bed, staring at the ceiling when he heard the key in the lock. He jumped up and started dialing the number for the pizza place. He didn’t order earlier because he hadn’t known for sure when Ryan would be home. Plus, he had all those sexuality thoughts to wrestle through.
Ryan struggled in with two plastic bags full of beer and one black plastic bag from the adult video store. They’d found the porn store right after finding the liquor store and local pizza place when they’d moved on campus. They had their priorities in order.
After setting down the bags, Ryan went to their mini-fridge and started shoving the beers inside. He opened one and handed it to Seth with a smile when he was done.
Seth ordered the pizzas – two larges with everything except anchovies – using his parent’s credit card. They were good for something. He grinned at Ryan and took a long drink of the beer in his hand. If he stopped thinking about how much he wanted Ryan, maybe he could have a good time.
The DVD player in Seth’s laptop was what they used to watch the porn. They had a TV, but not a separate DVD player and there wasn’t any good porn on video. So, they made do with the small screen on the laptop whenever they watched movies – porn included.
Even two teenaged boys had to ease into the hardcore porn. Ryan usually got something soft involving scantily clad women and some kind of story line like, “Bikini Beach Party 8”. Tonight’s opener was Bound, which had a much heavier plot, but Seth wasn’t complaining at all because, hot chicks doing naughty things to each other was always good.
Ryan settled close to Seth on the bed and Seth tried to pretend that the change in his breathing was because Jennifer Tilly was taking her clothes off, and not because Ryan’s arm brushed his thigh. Their backs were against the wall and the laptop rested on their legs, half on Ryan’s lap, half on Seth’s.
About a half hour into the movie, the phone rang. Seth grumbled until he realized that it was the pizza guy downstairs and he buzzed him up. Thankfully, Ryan paused the movie, and, after Seth answered the door and claimed the boxes, even waited until they were both resettled to restart the movie.
By the time Bound was over, only grease and cheese were left in the boxes. There was, thankfully, more beer, even though Seth had consumed at least four. His eyes blurred as Ryan leaned to the end of the bed and grabbed the next movie. “Ready for the next one, Seth?”
Seth nodded and held up his empty bottle. “More beer, too.”
Ryan chuckled and slid off the bed. When he’d settled back and handed the bottle over, Seth smiled gratefully and tried to ignore the smile he got in return – it probably didn’t mean anything.
Seth was also going to ignore how much closer Ryan was. He tried to blame it on the fact that he was half drunk, but their thighs were touching, and he couldn’t ignore that. Ryan tapped a few keys on the keyboard and soon, the screen was filled with mostly naked women touching each other.
It gave Seth something to focus on besides the heat coming from Ryan. Something that, while it wasn’t exactly what he wanted, still got things accomplished. Bound was good, but actual porn provided a lot more details. Seth watched intently as he sipped his beer. He could feel his cock starting to stir in his pants.
The scene changed and this time, there were two guys with one girl – one of the guys was blonde, the other with dark hair. Okay, they’d gotten threesome porn before, but this was the first time there had been two guys. Seth dared a glance at Ryan – his face was flushed and his mouth was open slightly. He had to turn back and focus on the movie before he succumbed to the desire to kiss that mouth.
The guys on the screen kissed and Seth couldn’t help the gasp. He laughed weakly to cover and whispered, “Geez, Ry, what kind of porn did you get?”
Ryan shook is head and blinked a few times. “I didn’t…” He didn’t finish his sentence and Seth twisted his head to look at him instead of the screen. Ryan bit his lip and cleared his throat “We could, uh, fast forward. It said threesomes, I didn’t look…”
“No,” Seth interrupted. He might have said that too quickly. But he didn’t care. “It’s cool. New.” He turned back to the screen and watched as the blonde guy spread out on his back and the girl climbed on top of him and started fucking him. This was fine. Better than fine. He could watch two guys have sex with a girl.
But then the dark haired guy on the screen moved and started to push his cock into the blonde guy’s mouth. Jesus and Moses. Seth didn’t know where to look. He wanted to watch the movie. He wanted to see the blonde guy suck the other one off. But part of him wanted to look at Ryan and see his reaction.
Plus, his cock was completely hard now, and it was time for him to take care of that. Before his realization today, he wouldn’t have had any problem doing so. He and Ryan had been watching porn and jacking off together for years. Now, Seth was too aware to go for it. He pressed against his hard cock with the heel of his hand. Maybe he could wait until there were fewer guys on the screen.
But it was really fucking hot. The blonde guy’s mouth was stretched around the other one’s cock, and the look on both of their faces was pure bliss.
There was a moan to his left. A soft one that he’d never have noticed if he hadn’t been so attuned to Ryan. But Ryan was moaning. He dared a glance over at his friend, but then couldn’t look away. Ryan had his cock out and was stroking in time to the screen. Seth stared at him.
Ryan’s eyes closed and his even, white teeth bit down on his upper lip. He was gorgeous that Seth couldn’t help himself any longer.
He slid his hand across Ryan’s thigh, never taking his eyes away from his face. Ryan’s eyes flew open and he stared back at Seth. But he didn’t move away and he didn’t tell him to stop. Trying to ignore his shaking hands, Seth wrapped his hand around Ryan’s and started to help.
“Seth,” Ryan whispered. Seth looked up at him and then stared back down at his hand. Ryan pulled his hand away and it was just Seth’s hand. Just Seth jacking Ryan off. It was better than his dirtiest, most secret fantasies.
He scrambled a little closer and wondered if it would be okay to kiss Ryan. But before he could decide, Ryan was kissing him. Warm, soft mouth, so much different than Summer. Bigger, more in control and Seth couldn’t help the moan that escaped. With his lips open, Ryan pushed his tongue inside and it was better than he’d ever let himself hope.
Ryan was kissing him. And letting him touch his cock and Seth was in absolute heaven. The only way it could be better was if somehow his own cock was getting attention, but he could wait. Ryan moaned again and it was the sweetest sound that Seth could ever remember hearing.
The neurons that weren’t firing in glee remembered the laptop. Seth tried not to kick and move around too much, but he wanted more. He wanted to touch Ryan everywhere, but he wasn’t sure what was allowed. This might be a heat of the moment thing that they never spoke of again.
Ryan tore his mouth away and pressed his face against Seth’s shoulder. “You’re going to make me come, Seth.”
“That’s kind of the idea, Ry,” he somehow managed to whisper.
Ryan groaned again and pushed into Seth’s hand, which was the hottest thing in the entire world. Ryan was panting and Seth just watched as his body stiffened. He kept stroking as Ryan came; reveling in the beauty of his best friend.
He extracted himself from Ryan and slumped back against the wall. Ryan reached over and closed the laptop before setting it on the floor. He got up, shrugged out of his pants and shirt, but left his boxers, and turned out the light. Seth had no idea what was going on.
There was a dip in the bed as Ryan climbed in next to Seth. “Ry? Is everything –” he was cut off with a hard pressing kiss. He couldn’t help moaning.
Hard, sure hands quickly unbuttoned his jeans and reached inside. God, he was so hard and when Ryan touched him for the first time, he jerked in response. “Shh,” Ryan whispered before pressing kisses down Seth’s jaw to his neck.
Seth needed to be closer. He struggled to get his shirt off without letting Ryan move. Before he could, he was completely tangled in the blanket and his own clothing. Ryan sat up and moved away. Seth whined at the loss of contact.
Chuckling softly, Ryan helped Seth take his clothes off and then settled his heavier weight on top of him. Seth was afraid he’d ruin things if he opened his mouth. He wanted to know what Ryan was doing, wanted to know what this all meant, but what he wanted most of all was Ryan’s hand on his dick again.
Ryan’s fingers trailed down Seth’s chest, followed by soft kisses pressed to sensitive places. Ryan was good. His fingers settled back at the waistband of Seth’s boxers. He was so close. Just a little closer. Seth strained upwards, an invitation for Ryan to tug the boxers down, which he took complete advantage of.
“God, Ryan. Please…” Warm air wafted across Seth’s now exposed dick and he was confused for a second. What was Ryan ---?
Oh. Fuck. Warm wetness closed around the tip and he was in Ryan’s mouth. Ryan was sucking him off and it had been too long since Summer, since anyone and he was not going to last. It was Ryan and he only managed a few quick thrusts before he was groaning and coming.
Seth panted as he dropped back onto the bed. Maybe Ryan moved too quickly or else Seth wasn’t paying any attention at all because before he could say anything, Ryan’s mouth slid onto his own and he could taste himself on Ryan’s tongue.
And Ryan was hard again. Seth was working on impulse before he could think about what they’d done. He twisted, surprising Ryan and himself a little before settling on top of Ryan and taking another kiss.
It was the best thing in the world when Ryan moaned his name. It gave him permission and feedback and everything he wanted in one simple word. He kissed his way down Ryan’s chest but he had no idea what to do when he finally got where he thought he was going. Face to face, so to speak, with Ryan’s cock and he could only stare. What was he doing? He’d gotten so many blowjobs – it had been one of Summer’s favorite things to do – but he’d never given one. Hadn’t really even thought about it much, at least on this side of it.
“God, Seth. You don’t have to…”
“Shh. I want to. I just don’t know what I’m doing.”
“ Just use your hand. Fuck. You make me so hard.”
Seth swallowed heavily and bit his lip for a second before leaning down and sucking the head of Ryan’s cock into his mouth. The moan above him encouraged him to take more. He tried to remember all the things that Summer had done that he’d liked – he wanted as much of Ryan as he could take.
Ryan’s cock was heavy on his tongue, leaking as he swallowed thickly. He got another moan and Seth moved a little faster. He could feel the energy thrumming beneath Ryan’s skin and could tell that he wanted to thrust. Seth backed off, breathless.
“It’s okay, Ry. Do it.”
His eyes flew open and he nodded as Seth took the cock back into his mouth. Closing his eyes, Seth let Ryan fuck his mouth slowly. It was wonderful. He moaned and held onto Ryan’s hips as he moved.
The whimpers and moans coming from Ryan were mixed with breathy gasps and parts of his name. Seth was amazed at how hot the noises were. Fingers tangled in his hair and Ryan groaned again loudly as he stilled.
Seth was prepared for the come in his mouth, he was…but he swallowed wrong and coughed a little as he finally let go. The sound of their breathing filled the silence in the room.
Staring down, Seth wasn’t sure what he should do. They were in his bed, and he really didn’t want to send Ryan to his own and he wasn’t leaving. He made up his mind when a smile spread across Ryan’s face. He slid to the left and curled his body around Ryan’s.
Ryan snuggled back and Seth fell asleep with a smile on his face for the first time in a while. Ryan was hotter than Summer, anyway.
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